way past my bed time...

Bryce and I are still awake, and waiting for a phone call from Jonathan (Bryce's older brother). Jensen, our youngest nephew went into the ER tonight for possible appendicitis. We have the other 2 kids here at our house, so they could try and get some sleep tonight. I am realizing more and more that it isn't good for me to stay up so late. While I am worried about my nephew, my mind starts to mess with me, and I end up all over the place with my thoughts. Is that something that happens with age, or is that something that happens when you have gone through a lot in your life? And really, I have had a very blessed life comparatively. The more kids I work with, the more I wish I could help them see how a family is supposed to work. That I could show them how God intended a family to look like. That regardless of what they hear at home, they are loved by their heavenly Father. There is so much hurt in this world. I think it's time I sit down and look at what all it is that I am busy with. That seems to be my excuse for everything. "I am just so busy." But really...what the heck am I busy with? I only work part time at a church. Yes it can be exhausting, but it's 2 days total out of the week. What in the world am I filling my life up with? Am I reaching out to any of these hurting people? I think I might start using a journal to record my time. Let's see what I am really filling my days up with. Now of course...there is hesitation in that because I know off the bat what I could be doing less of. We shall see where this goes over the next couple of weeks.